Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Where Is That PAUSE Button ?!?!

Happy 7 Month Birthday to my sweet Baby Jude today! :) I am enjoying this age WAY to much! Can I slam on the brakes, please?! I don't know if it is because I am more relaxed with my second, but I am having a LOT of fun! But I am mourning each stage as it passes because I imagine this is my last baby. He is such a laid back little guy, and he is starting to have a funny little personality! Poor little man has been pretty sick for about a week now, he and Emmalyn both had Bronchial Pneumonia. Breathing treatments and medicines abound in our house! Not very fun, but we seem to be coming out of the fog...slowly but surely. Here are some of the things I am enjoying this month:

  • He can turn over well from back to front, finally! He had the front to back down pat at 3 months, but has been "on the verge" of turning back to front for what seems like forever! Well, now he can roll either way...but still doesn't seem to like being on his tummy.
  • He is very good at holding his toys, and switching them between hands. It's so cute to see him get excited about his toy and bang it against anything close... repeatedly! He is also grabbing at everything that comes close to his little hands or face. The other day, Kris was holding him while he was eating a bowl of cereal, and before he knew it, Jude slammed his hand down in the bowl, splashing milk and cereal all over both of them! I thought it was pretty funny!
  • He has THE MOST cuddly, kissable cheeks EVER! I can't help but kiss that little spot where the cheek (should) meet the neck! (He's a little on the chubby side, my friend Michael likes to play "Where's your neck?!" with him! )
  • He sits very well supported, but only on his own for a very short time. It's pretty funny to see him get excited about sitting up, and fall down because of it! :)
  • Jude loves his cereal! I mix the fruit or veggie baby food with it b/c he doesn't seem to like any of them on their own, but he puts it away! He cracks me up when he shakes his head back and forth (almost violently) as he lunges at the spoon!
  • He loves diaper changes! I have never seen a baby that loves having his diaper changed so much! He always coos, talks, and giggles while he's on the changing table. My friend Jessica said that when he is in the church nursery, they even change his diaper sometimes just because it always "cheers him up." :)
  • Peek A Boo is finally VERY funny! For a while he would just look at you like you were nuts, but now we get a great giggle every time! You don't even always have to hide your eyes...just hearing the words make him laugh! :)








Saturday, November 14, 2009

Two Months Ago...

My life changed forever...again. My Daddy was driving a school bus and was hit on a highway by an 18-wheeler. Right on the driver's side, he was killed instantly. HOW IS THIS HAPPENING????? How, at 31 years old, do I and my sister and brother have no parents?!?!?!? Mom has been gone now for 6 years last month. I have had days where I am numb and can talk about it all without a single tear. Other days...I can't seem to get my head out of the fog and can't stop crying about every.little.thing!

I am grateful that there were no children on the bus yet, and that the only other person on the bus, an aide, was okay, as well as the truck driver. But...REALLY??? I guess I am still quite angry. With the truck driver? With Daddy....b/c I can't figure out why the most cautious driver in the world would pull out in front of a truck? With God? I'm not quite sure. I do know I am angry, though.

I have days where it just hits me over and over. Today is one of those days. I miss him so much! I miss his laughter, his amazing hugs, his knack for knowing a little about everything, his ability to make me smile, his love for his family and friends. I could go on.

I'm not quite sure why I felt the need to blog...it appears to be the first time in over 2 months. But I guess I thought I'd let you know why I am M.I.A. on my blog, and how I'm doing...for those of you wondering. I am okay some days, not so great others.

I am in the process of organizing pictures over the last few months, I will hopefully have a more uplifting blog soon with pictures of my babies.

For now...here is the most recent picture of my daddy, taken for his church directory right before the accident. Doesn't he have a GREAT smile?!?!


I miss you, Daddy.